its been weeks. many thngs had change, even expression of myself, i reflect myself in d mirror, wat i am. im jus mere confused as to wats happenin all around. wat m i doin? isit a rite thng to do? i had tried to avoid many times, avoidin.. but i stil jus cant keep my sight away, my ears away, it no point to do it, i jus seeing myself goin darker, deeper into d grieve-ness i felt yet hiding it so much behind my mask tat shows an expression either im happy or nothingness. i kno very wel bout d me is tat once my mind stray to d moment of hatred n anger, i felt it returnin to me, it made me into another person where im not suppose to b, i wan to forget it, but it has happen not only once but more than twice or mayb more. ppl say jus let go, its worthless but its not anythn or any1 worthless to me no matter how bad isit. d silent treatment i tried, d cold shoulder i did, jus not even a heart to do it, its against wat i wanted most, only add more litre of tears in d bucket. i duno how to say it, dun kno how to put tis all in proper words for it to b understand clearly. my anger gotten worse over days passing by. d more i feel of hurtin ppl, or mayb even myself. but wen thngs jus getting sweet n im like being bitter, i feel like sumthn or sum1 has taken d troubled in me but it jus din last unless it continues tis way for a longer moment where i wished it wil. i duno wat faces to giv nex, its always so indecipherable due to mix feelin of anger, sadness n happiness. d remorse often kicks in, n i wil b losing control of emotions n being sum1 or sumthn tat im not suppose to b at all til it hurts..






words from a tale told by an unspoken