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April 28, 2008,

See them die!
They Die!


A rain of blood should cover our world
Stench and decay should be the only thing we sense
But hidden in the dark and erased from our heads
Barbarity and slaughter are everywhere
A contemptible ethic, a relict


For the weakest of the weak
For the lowest of the low
My voice for the voiceless
My fists for the innocent


On the edge of a new age this is still our dogma
No grave for millions - tortured creatures,
But a common grave for our morals
This slaughter - an ethic I deny
An archaic way of thinking, so monstrous and absurd



by: Heaven shall burn
title: voice of the voiceless




TAT IS GOOD. TAT REALLY DOES REFLECT ALMOST WAT IM FEELING!! SCREW D GOOD! D HYPOCRITICAL!

10:35 PM


err...

Buddha? masters of d karmic world i guess

Barry Boey

wat is billy lookin at?. forgot wat is he doin actually.lookin at sum animal shit?

Boeys


found sum old pic. decided to hav a try to hav a 1st post wit pics.

9:34 PM

April 27, 2008,

at tis hour in d dawn. at d peak of twilight. im here alone, thinkin alot of thngs. d moment where i wil tink alot especially now, how thngs were goin on. sum thngs r jus always not perfect. but stil tryin d best to do anythn. i had enuf of emotional breakdown, i kno i had been missin tat person now tat she is asleep. i woke up in dazed counting time, as time past really fast so as near to my departure sooner or later. its not like i wanted to, if im capable i wil do anythn to stay for another year. jus 1 more year then i wil wait for many years later to come. i wil b waiting n waiting. waiting, d sun to rise again for me, to shine down on me again wit d warmth smile at me, tat shows eternally we shall b n nvr b apart again......

3:45 AM

April 22, 2008,

Barry randy orton vs mugilan john cenaTis guy does a good Triple H act

6:34 PM

April 13, 2008,

its been weeks. many thngs had change, even expression of myself, i reflect myself in d mirror, wat i am. im jus mere confused as to wats happenin all around. wat m i doin? isit a rite thng to do? i had tried to avoid many times, avoidin.. but i stil jus cant keep my sight away, my ears away, it no point to do it, i jus seeing myself goin darker, deeper into d grieve-ness i felt yet hiding it so much behind my mask tat shows an expression either im happy or nothingness. i kno very wel bout d me is tat once my mind stray to d moment of hatred n anger, i felt it returnin to me, it made me into another person where im not suppose to b, i wan to forget it, but it has happen not only once but more than twice or mayb more. ppl say jus let go, its worthless but its not anythn or any1 worthless to me no matter how bad isit. d silent treatment i tried, d cold shoulder i did, jus not even a heart to do it, its against wat i wanted most, only add more litre of tears in d bucket. i duno how to say it, dun kno how to put tis all in proper words for it to b understand clearly. my anger gotten worse over days passing by. d more i feel of hurtin ppl, or mayb even myself. but wen thngs jus getting sweet n im like being bitter, i feel like sumthn or sum1 has taken d troubled in me but it jus din last unless it continues tis way for a longer moment where i wished it wil. i duno wat faces to giv nex, its always so indecipherable due to mix feelin of anger, sadness n happiness. d remorse often kicks in, n i wil b losing control of emotions n being sum1 or sumthn tat im not suppose to b at all til it hurts..






words from a tale told by an unspoken

1:57 AM

April 10, 2008,

sorry to my daughter ho mei ji tat i cant make it to ur bday party tis sat..i knew its gonna b fun..but too bad i sumhow not in a good condition worse than b4..i duno wat d hell im talkin here..i kno being wit u ppl includin dinie n d rest, u, nessa, n hu else, dwayne, n mayb got more wil b fun..wish u had a great bday splashin day..happy bday to u too..no gift coz ur daddy is broke..i had spend full day in my last fucked up saturday, i rather not go anywhere on tat saturday if i kno its gonna b a pile of shit there *well its not tat bad, jus exaggeratin* to get tis sat to go up bukit antarabangsa again..it does relieve me from d prob kept deep in me..theres too much n complicated to b stated out here. n best of all can spend a nite on d party, tats cool too. i duwanna stay home all d while. i wan b outside, go crazy n all those. mayb get drunk up in a swimmin pool. being around there is so much more of releasing wat i really am though, especially big tons of laughter popping out. i felt sick n fed up of wats up around me tis days. readin sumthn or seeing sumthn tat culd jus brings out d most dangerous anger in me, seeing so much shit n feelin it. hahahaha..all rite, not gonna express so much in detail for now. i duwan to feel tat always wen sayin d fact of my darker side of my inner self. thngs tat i tink nobody ever knew. hey, have fun there. sorry disappoint u tat i cant make it. find sum1 dress as me to go to ur party. c ya..






down, dead, shattered, n broken dad of urs

9:56 PM

April 5, 2008,

A guy of 2 faces wit tons of feelings n emotions..torn between multiple decisions to decide his nex step..afta d fiery flames in his heat lighted up so bright, showin full emotions of anger n sadness on a day where he expected d best of his day..turn out to b 1 of d worse..another day another depression..he jus culdn tink more anymore..he jus wans sumthn..a changed tat culd b..for d worse or d better?..

11:19 PM


days wen by well..eventho d heartache of not gettin to go out wit her is stil there on tat day for sure..i gotta accept tat we both cant go out together tat very day..wel..she wen on her own n i wen on mine *a last minute decision*..but stil misses her alot. ..since dwayne invited me to his house at d same time to celebrate his sis vanessa bday..d 1st thng to go there, im offered to cross dress..i jus dun get it how can gals go out of their house wit all their tighs n shoulder n bak n half chest exposed..feel so skinful..ok..tats enuf of it..at least theres a big big humour in it..dwayne was like so attracted to me n im like so oh yea im hot..wel not exaclty wit my abit hairy legs...looks really wrong..but i look dam like a gal..wats up wit me n gal look..i can b both..glad to b born a universal being though..i was like 1 of d earliest kid there..waitin for d other guys to arrive..to hav more crazy shit goin on..it took awhile for all of them to arrive..afta our meal of chickens n spaghettis..we had sum water balloon games but im not really so into, jus dun feel like gettin wet..vj n i jus lepak around n talk..he is d only 1 not wet..afta every1 is wet..d whole troops of water balloons ppl came attackin me..start wit my own daughter, she wet me all in 1 throw of a balloon afta being held by dinie..finally a fallen soldier i am..got half naked on d street n dinie start chasin me for no apparent reason carryin a slipper n i duno y d hell m i runnin half naked so far out n passers by were lookin n i duwanna kno wat r they tinkin..we all chnged bak..loads of guys in d house..so odours jus fly here n there includin mine..tat day was actually quite chilly..moreover, d house is filled wit air conds everywhere..afta d bday cake cuttin ceremony, i decided to stay over since many of them r stayin over as well..d whole nite was a chatter nite..laughter aroused everywhere on d second level..sum r playin video games..we slept quite late in d dawn..i can stil remember wen all of us keep forcin mei ji to stay awake..tats really funny..no1 allow her to slp wen she wans to slp real badly..instead wen every1 is out, i myself cant take it but to slp 1st alone, til mei ji burst inside sayin 'Y he can slp!? y i cant slp!?'..n im like 'no i did not slp! im jus restin, closin my eyes but not slpin'..but ppl dun really bother me..now tats a good thng..i almost fell aslp wen i heard vanessa *dwayne sis* askin us bout supper n of coz i jump out of bed to eat 1st at 3am..chicken n nasi lemak..n spaghetti at tat hour..i feel like in a place far away from time n day n date..jus wit a room for foods..gotta admit tat i ate alot tat day..afta tat, i sat on d sofa n fell aslp n dwayne put tomato into my open up mouth n took a pic of it..tat pic is sumhow..err..weird..i look like a corpse..afta all, we guys all end up slpin in d livin hall n me on d big sofa..stil feels good n cold..i had a good day wit those old ex skul frens of mine, loads of stomach achin laughters, if im stil in smk hulu kelang, wonder how wil i b now?.. btw, on tat day is also a stormy n rainy day.. where it all begins..my new beginning bak in 07..d very day tat meant so much..

1:19 AM