I can say im not tat attach to family members..tis year reunion..im alot more soft spoken n quieter..im no more d hapi care to care around n talk happily always smilin here n there..not anymore now..at d boey side..not much cous..only d eldest n d rest around my age r gals..in cny, we talk alot..bout skuls, stuf, jokes n all..last time we use to play kejar outside d compound..now every1 has grown..bein in relationships n all..conflicts..depression..hard times.... me n my cous talk mostly bout her n my relationshipt..tats d thng tat keep us talkin n talkin or mayb sumtimes bout movies n all..n d thngs she can make..wel..we r tat use to keep sayin n being so proud being a boey..as its so uncommon around..shes a boey in her own way...n im a boey in my own way..im jus really detached from my families, even wit d boeys..i jus dun hav d spirit anymore..d family spirit is not much in me..sooner or later..im gonna feel like a stranger..i jus wanna live on my own wit only sum1 to b wit..livin independantly n all..but tats only wen time to come..n allowance by parents..i felt not anymore my old self of how i am being so so hapi to always stick around wit family members..i prefer bein more self centered..by tis can tel how much i changed from last time til now, even from last year can make alot of difference in me..wat wil i b nex year?..a guy livin in his own cell?..lyin dead anywhere?..thngs r jus so complicated..