..D blade is his answer...

a day comes n go,
nite rise n falls,
i sittin by window,
hearin d chimes of nite birds,
staring at d blank wall,
tinkin n tinkin....
i shall not fall here,
i must raise hell,
i must giv hell,
i must rise,
we wil rise,
into d world of cruelty,
evil scent pollutin d air of purity,
wat has it become,
as i stay awake now,
askin pointlessly to d lord,
pls guide me, y u doin tis to me,'
he doesn listen,
im given pain,
im feeling wat hell is like internally,
but a love for me by sum1,
has ease me,
keep d devil in me locked as far as we go,
once n for all,
we wil rise....

fuck u dwayne..y u must go penang study?..fucka sial..we're gonna miss u man..asshole..how m i gonna make fun of u n continue those sperman li n those sperm sperm tfk stuf..btw, if u nid knowledge to get sum gals laid there..u can call me anytime..i teach u how..buy durex condom..its good brand..hahaha.last wednesday, a public holz..wen to dwayne farewell party..its great hangin out bak wit those ppl again..loads of laughin shit here n there..stil every1 is a joker as usual..hard to find those kind of ppl to hav such a freakin good sense of humour..again, it reminds me d times im being in smk hulu kelang couple years bak. I gotta look forward..to a new beginnin.. a msg to dwayne if he reads tis..stop mapling around..it kills ur freakin balls..good luck man..til d day we meet again.

im dun belong in a type of group of ppl..in fact i hate belongin in 1..lets c..in my skul..loads of groups..shit loads of them..sum r d so called cool group, d noisy, d quiet, d smart group, d sociable group..anyhow they suck..i hate loads of ppl..yet ok wit loads of ppl..how many dickheads hated me out there?..d more d merrier..

I smell a band rivalry goin on..wonder wat happens nex..wuld wanna kno..seeing bands killin each other..wuld b fun to c blood shed..i love blood shed..d scent of fresh dark blood..d sight or blackened blood..turns my mind on..killin is an option.

lets c wat happens..eagerly to kno..im glad im not in..yet

tis a blog..an anonymous blog..seeing a blog reflects how u tink on tat person in real life..actually is kinda untrue

I start to dislike frenster,.make me liking it again..wtf..swt my ass

Darkness consume me,
anger consume me,
silent consume me,
hatred consume me,
demon consume me,
misery consume me,
thngs consuming a person,
like broad daylight til dark,
misery is my fren,
sadness is nontheless,
stop worshippin d god,
n all better thngs to come,
hopefully,
it wil,
religion is d murderer....

time for no nonsense total insult...look at tis im insultin..no..tis is not an insult or wateva isit..tis is gonna b fun
lets c ppl hu act freakin cool..arent wat they r...theres no1 hu is natural cool..wel, mayb sum special case freako..im a form 5 kid tis year..time to b matured?..neh, its time to boost man, cant u c d word KID there..i dislike being matured..eventho i can b matured in d other way..even sum form 4s or juniorer is more matured than me..they r jus stuck up, being so cool n matured so fast..screw tat man..if they tink they r so fashionable like wearin abit of a lala look t shirt n shirt wit a screw up tie (tat looks like puke on d clothes, its sick to c it) n no wearin studs u asses!, tats not meant for u, it looks sick on u, ppl may say i duno how to follow trend..tel me more, wat is tat shitty trend..tats 1 of d type of ppl hu wear it wanna hantam d most..cool..i dislike ppl hu i dun really kno, wel i enjoy tat..its really fun to dislike..lets c all sorts of stuck up faces, gay face n all..ok..tis is real a screw up post..i duno wat to do..jus lepas it la..talk crap..pantat

im listenin to bleeding through currently..their music is deathcore but talkin mostly bout love, love failure most of them..sad lyrical content yet aggressive..

sick-o-hell..sick n sick..billy is a angry guy hu cant control himself..tats so cool..tis year, no fightin so far, sad case..it wil b suitable time to join in..i duwanna c anythn now..i duwan profiles..its makin my eyes sick to d limit..or shud i say over d limit..my eyeballs can burst out..i hate to b lied at..but i dun mind if sum pals lied to me, as i understand they r abit of a faggot,(i lied too) coz they pissin me out..but no no lyin to billy..if kena caught, mati la..liars, c ur pants burn in hell..my eyeballs wil b burnt too to see thngs tat of coz ordinary ppl duwan c..i almost faint once..y din i faint, it wil b cool to hav a blackout sumtimes..coma is better..or lets say dead for many years then to revived again..billy is nuts for d moment..=D big smile for d crowd..oh screw them..

i can wonder now how those ppl in d olden days caught a high fever n dun really hav any good medication like panadol..i feel d pain..both of d pain..extremely pain..tats more like it

yes..i am..

Thank you........

All goes well..im so hapi......really hapi...

Be strong..

u can do it..

u can go thru tis..

u wil nvr go..

I got faith in u..

thngs jus come n go,
thngs jus comes from good to bad,
bad to good,
thngs ppl hav to go thru everyday,
its always installed for mankinds anytime,
he is in pain to feel tat for sum1,
pls,
let her b fine,
he beg d superiors,
pls dun do tat to her,
y dun they put him in tat state instead of her,
he rather feel d worse for himself,
than to witness it happenin on her,
a treatment she dun deserve..
put him in her place, let her go..
pls...b well...b fine...

Heaven rise up,
helpin d innocence,
but culdnt giv d sight to d 1 hu nids it,
un-sighted un-pleasantness fillin in,
cause d 1 hu dun deserve to suffer,
soon to realise many sins he commited,
out of unwillingness of depression,
satan made him does his chore,
its not his fault,
its wats happening to him,
wat he sees,
wat he heard,
wat he read,
wat he does,
turnin to pure red blooded,
anger n hatred to d eyes of d beholder,
made hu is not hu he is,
d beast has unleashed from him,
behold, d beast within......

Children of Bodom...can u please sound bak like how u guys did in Something Wild, or Hatebreeder..

1st day of skul..is 8 hours from now..time for d arsonists to come!

grand me devil power..

D most important thng n d best thng tat eva happen in 2007..well not only in 2007 actually..its d whole 16 over years of a soul livin in d body of Billy..is..


..bout d creator if tis blog..

Hua Min..

..for comin into my life..

..for acceptin me..

..for supportin me..

..for caring for me..

..for loving me..

..for me to love alot..

..for everythng..

..she meant alot...more than alot to me i can say..


..if ur readin tis..wanna say I love u alot..



tq

happy new year..or shud hav i got my own version of new year..happy F****** extremely extreme hardcore black death metal new year..tat sounds more like it..

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HAPPY NEW YEAR!!..oh yea bla bla bla cut d crap.. wat d hell..its jus a new year..another brand new year each year..then it wil all turn out d same thng every year..but i dun tink mines gonna b d same

my new year blog wit d song from Through The Eyes Of The Dead n others n others playin in my ears..aah..tat sounds wat i wan to come for new year..its gonna show wat i wan from d new year..its been since form 2 i changed alot..last 3 years..til now..its gettin better off me..nex year more headbangin, more fist hittin on ppl face *I wan tat!*, more shreddin, more riffin, more brain crackin for exams, more love to love sumbody tats so special to me..2008..wat u tryin to do..my last year in secondary, giv me all!

bukit tinggi..is jus sumthn..sum hill..not known by many others..its good to make it d hills of d dead..but theres no dead faggots there..its kinda boring up there..but its coolin..jus tat.. n d bunnies do look like me..cute..wat do i c most there is couples here n there..make me fed up seein so many of them..most of d time im cool there, jus being quite most of d time, doin my own stuf, din really do anythn tho, jus sit around like sum kind of uselsss thrash..n so comes to d countdown..n all i do is jus lookin at d firecrackers goin up n explode..come on, y dun it jus get shot in sum1 ears n pop their faggot head!! a new year massacre..sweet baby!..tats it for new year there..not so extreme, not so anythn..jus so so..

on wednesday, skuls startin again..n everythn goes bak to normal..yea how "NICE" wil tat b man..crackin my freakin head open to get sum shitty calculation in it..n y d hell im in pure science!..im now form 5..wat i gonna b later..i wanna b wat i wan..i duwanna b wat they wan..i nid my own life n future n career..ppl can live more happily wen they live doin wat they love most doin..skuls not gonna b easy..sum1 is gonna goin home early by van..i wil b left alone by then..unlike last year..only d good thng i can get to her break n lunch time..n hope shes willin to spend those time wit me....n i stil get to walk her to d van..

Now a new year, new ways of living, new frens*dun tink so*, new enemies*of coz*, new love 1*no way, i got a real perfect 1 now tat i love so much, i had no reason to hav a new 1*, new luck *hopefully*, new guitar*hopefully n its a must*, better grades*its a must*, new sorrow*hopefully no, im tired of it*,..wat else culd b new..
got new shoes, new bag, new hair*no more emo lookin*..looks like a new me?..i duno..but i vowed not to b like d past..im no more d more emo guy,.n looks like i got over emo music..i mean less listenin to it..it can kills sumtimes..every year, sumthn in me must change..i cant stick bak to d same roots..i use to hate my past..now i duno wat i tink bout it..its jus destined to b lidat..gotta accept it..but i dun hate d past wit me n huamin..i wan a new guitar tis year..its a must to get..i seriously need it.. tis year too culd b d release of when souls depart demo..1st ever demo..its been so long for me dreamin tat..i hope it works out well.

I wish tat in wil b seeing alot of good thngs nex year..i duwanna c anythn tat can hurt me, make me sad,make me feel not tat good, etc etc kind of stuf..its my last year..i wanna hav d best of d best in tat year..d most memorable year.. misery n sorrow, be outta me..

"grand me power of light n darkness.."




Band: Dark Tranquility

Song: Misery´s Crown

All has now been broken
On streets I dare not walk
Freedom is an illusion
I build my fences high
If there was something out there
I've learned not to expect
There's a hundred million reasons
Not to care

Don't bring it
Don't bring it
Don't bring your misery down on me
Don't bring it
Don't bring it
Don't bring your misery down on me
Wear misery's crown

As always in these matters
You broke the deal of deals
And wasted what was given
To revel in your mess
I gave up all for nothing
I tried my best and failed
There's a thousand million reasons
Never to share again

This is how it all begins
This is how it all begins

Don't bring it
Don't bring it
Don't bring your misery down on me
Don't bring it
Don't bring it
Don't bring your misery down on me
Wear misery's crown

This is how it all begins

Come now
Come now
Come now

Don't bring it
Don't bring it
Don't bring your misery down on me
Don't bring it
Don't bring it
Don't bring your misery down on me
Wear misery's crown