more n more students gettin smarter each year..our days r over, taken over by d new ones..its goin 2 b 2008.. gonna b 1 of d most challengin year in my life..spm n other stuf..tel me, if get to choose either passion or studies, which wan shud i take more..i love my passion but i cant neglect my studies n i must do well in studies..well, wateva, gonna c how it wil b on d 1st day of skul..'

skul is freakin startin..n yes, i wish to b an arsonist to burn d hell down of it..wit no feelings of sympathy to wateva isit its in there..instead of those norwegians satanist tat burn churches to d ground..i wwanna burn skuls down..each n every 1 of them..faggots.. y am i bloggin, always at tis hour..its d hour, where i felt most in a not myself attitude..i duno y i feel like bashin sum1 up, gouge their eye balls out, scream at their faces n all..i heard tis is sign of a demonic possession..cool..grant me powers of d demons..bla bla bla.. jus browsin around blogs..n theres jus freakin so many gedik ppl n all..i duno y ppl wuld wan to publicise so many of their faces in d blogs, wan to b famous, wan to b known?,,oh pls for hell sake..n d post tats been posted..its makin me sick to my mind, wth is wrong wit those ppl, givin fancy faggot language..'oh great, im using good english in it, ppl wil c me wonderful' sorta type..n im not goin freakin emo in blog, tis is not emo..i dun go talkin bout loses of sumthn precious, talkin sadly bout tis n tat shit..

i duno wat to doooo..new year is comin n im sure goin on a boring trip to bukit tinggi..wat can i do there..im jus being so called cool at home..i feelin myself gettin more unattached to my families..good thng or bad thng,it mayb good..i dun feel good..really..sigh..tis feelin is unexplainable..oh cut tis boys like gals shit now, how d hell can sum1 survivin listenin to those sorta emo especially its being played in radio countless times n videos played countless time on tv..stupidity..
wat sorta new year am i havin..new year of being in a feelin of loneliness?..new year being so in a bad shape..it doesn seem to start like a good year to me..if there is a sign to tel me, my year is gonna b d most challengin n yet d best n happiest year..i wuld b so grateful..i nid sumthn good to happen.....

CONGRATULATION HUA MIN!!

2day go fuckin jammin like playin metal in hell..

adi came to d jammin session..n finally when souls depart take him in...he wil b d vocalist..i hav sum prob singing too anyway..my throat cant really take it..i duwan later to get myself into throat surgery..

we decide to change our music style rather than those metalcore wit emotional chorus..we wan make pure brutality..death metal, deathcore n grindcore..fuckin aggression..is all bout fucks n fucks!..

afta tat great n tiring time of jammin, we ate chicken rice..n talk talk all d way..then go up cueball n got chase by a fuckin mad man hu keeps talkin bout music n all..wtf...he is aiming only at me d most..n he tinks hanif my bro..wat a guy..wen we made excuse to get d fuck out of there i we all run like fuck out of d place..he is creeping d hell out of me..

we then wen bowling..

later i dun feel good, i took sum rest n not tat active talkin alot..later afta adi wen off, i hangout wit hanif awhile in coffee bean..talkin stuf bout metal n all others..

wen bak home..tats all for today..go home lie on bed for few hours, thinkin n thinkin..

wel....

i guess i hav d weirdest post eva...

weird title tooo..

wil any1 come n share d songs our band produce..wil any1 care to listen..wil any1...


oh fuck! i kno its sum kind of death music. so wat d hell! im not a goodie goodie music maker!

metalheads r d coolest kind of ppl around..its trueeee..

emo posers r dead..

ok..bak to wat tis hands gonna type..

i forgot..oh great, thx to my extreme metal anger now..im seriously angry n hell moody for sum kind of shit tat i dun really get..wtf!!if sum1 sayin they dun talk but they did..again part of my metaphor or isit a metaphor or not..wateva it is..oh untrue words is tat eh..oh gosh..its wether my sensitivity anot..but hell hu cares, i like followin wat i feel, if i dun like i dun like, if i like it, i like it..but i hate it!..tis post makes no sense but there is a sense in it if u got d mood to look closely..but no1 wil..its jus crap to d eyes tat sees tis.. my feelings is gonee..look into d wall of death, c my mirror there..nice reflection..bleeding billy..

y does alot of ppl like to go around n b a fucckkyyy shit ass..i no it may not b rite for d fuck for me to write d hell down here..
i always look into frenster, n seein in sum shit profiles n they wil "hi, nice to meet u..mind to intro?"..oh come on..tats d lamest thng i eva saw..wtf is wrong wit them..especially those so called pretty gals, d guys wil jus come n all givin d freakin same line "helo..mind to intro..im 19..bla bla bla"..my ass..wat d fuck..dun they kno they makin themselve sound like a low price piece of shit..d hu eva freakin good lookin gal or guy wil then tink themselve dam famous wit their dam look n jus keep postin it..oh, cmon hav sum life for fuck sake..
tats not coool..n those ppl wil act nice, n start givin darn sweet talks for example "ur pretty, dun say lidat la..u very pretty..sure alot of guys like"..ooh brother of all,.no life..

new layout, done by hu else again..hua min =D..thx alot...its prettyly red..n abit of black..

y m i bloggin now..hmm..i not sure..mayb coz im goin on emo again..neh, not really..jus feelin like wanna say sum stuf out here..yea, learnin on vocals..i jus got interested into vocaling..my bro improvin on his gtr..feel glad for him..i hope he gets better n better..n b 1 of d best around..of coz into metal n super shreddins..lol..

i din post any pics here..it looks kinda boring in blog wit jus words n no pic..kinda shitty..i jus duno how d hell to put it yet..also i got no good cam to take any pic..my pic is not around like any other famous ppl..tats a good thng..my face doesn go exposin around..tats a good thng..lucky no cam for me..words of me is not everywhere..tats a good thng too..hmm..hu wil wanna talk bout sum1 like me anyway..wat d fuck m i crappin here..

im jus too complicated for sum1 to kno me..i duno y im sayin tis..but jus sayin it out here..aaah..sumthn is not rite wit me..ish..save me....save me....

ntg to say...









simply..









for fun..












oh holy fuck..






wat tis shit..







I hate it alot..

Today met up wit old frens from my tuition last year, alain, woo, yip, kyian..d others din come..too bad..wel, its like d old times where we guys go lepak-ing around n all..

...1 year plus ago, d tuition was really fun to go to..pmr year n we were like playin up n down instead of studyin..we even go to tuition to ponteng n play daytona in ampang point..duno wat happen 1 day suddenly every1 got obssessed wit daytona includin d gals..haha..kinda lost contact wit almost all except sum ppl..gals alot lost contact..michelle baru recently..mei yan..dnuo where she go..yee won..same interact club!..haha..but also jarang contact..afta pmr..every1 seem to split..then its forgotten..bout other classes..stil in contact wit may lyn..haha..tat lil lil lil gal.jugak sama interact club.

i kno alot of metal dudes too..in d class where u can c its flooded wit black T-shirt..same too we lost contact..lose sum metal members..sad case..if not of goin there, form3 wuldnt b d best year for me..i miss tat year eventho its abit stressful pmr stuf..yea..coz of it..i start to take *sumthn sumthn*..it so much fun we go n ponteng come bak to class late, go crazy..n then laughter everywhere..makin sum teacher feel pissed..haha..i stil remember theres a nerd in d class n quite poyo..my fren's*not to b named* boyfren..how cum she got so bad taste..eew.haha..

we once play black jack behind d class a t toilet..d whole boys..got caught.haha..make excuse tat brandon is sick or stomach upset n duno wat excuse from each other..haha..tats sick..

tis year...thngs change alot for every1..wel..like wat a fren said to me..d world is moving every second..clock ticks by..we gotta accept changes n move on wit our life..thx 4 tat..it awakens me alot..haha..time for me to get off tis chair..signin off

I jus browse thru a blog...n i found out tat vanessa was like copyin d whole conversation of duno how many of us talkin..wow..

wow..wat can u say bout her..shes so weird..1st time i saw sum1 did tat..it was a freakin long conversation..n can any1 understand tat?..my role is so lil..n tats where i got my new nickname Baba Bachai..=,=''...sweet...

If dwayne sees tis..dwayne, tel ur sis stop listenin or watchin ZAC EFRON..he is a fuckin killer gay of d society my fren..anyhow, high skul musical sux big time!

n i can believe, in tat convo..i tot dinni was dinie n its actually dinesh..n i tot dwayne as dinie once n dinie as dwayne once..wow..serious blur case prob i had..
I can jus talk to sum1 n my mind wil stray to sumwhere else n i wil b talkin shit there..dangerous..i culd hav spilled out my private part to ppl..swt..

1 thng tat is good in tis holiday is tat i did contact alot wit my old skul frens..nicee..kinda miss d times wen wit them..especially in d funny gang where VJ was stil around n so am i..can stil feel d sadness i felt of d last day of skul last year.. i was like d last to go home tat day. watchin everybody leavin 1 by 1..then wen all left..i sat alone tinkin..m i doin a right decision to move? i jus made good new frens near d end of d year but too bad i gotta move..its risky to take sudden changes lidat..i may regret it.. there i was..d final day in d land i had been studyin for almost 10 years since d start of primary 1..

its already december..now wats nex?..more hard times to come as i can c..its so obvious from now..y must i born out to b a student?..y am i in d science stream..gosh!..i wan to go play in gigs, i wanna go tour...escape from all those..now tats d situation where my life belongs to..

havin prob gettin a new guitar now..i wan a ESP eclipse model i saw tat day..I love d sound of it so much..fuckin heavy metal man!..

holidays suppose to study..but wat am i doin now..gaming?..guitaring?..composin?..writing?..readin?..i duno..i seem to lost spirit in doin anythn tis days..wondering..i jus wanna go out to b occupied..no1 invited me to go anywhere so far..looks like i gonna be out all alone again..now i kno d true of loneliness..being alone walkin in malls..see tat guys havin their partner female they love wit them, gals havin their male partners wit them,..hate to admit it..but its not really a good sight to me..so i gues tis is how my fren felt..yea, i guess im feelin like him..i jus dun like it..its makes me more down..uh, I miss her so much..how i wish shes here by my side always..

last friday, wen to klcc wit my old frens mostly classmate n 2 ex tuition frens..more like a gathering..we did a surprise bday thng 4 derrick..hapy bday man.. we watch enchanted..but my mood isnt there 4 movies..sumthn jus bothered my mind..sum1 is jus missin..
afta d movies all wen for meals..i din ate as i was tryin to save sum cash..klcc food is expensive..jus being parasite diggin on frens food..walk around..n there I met ojosan..wat a coincedence..she wit her good fren ana n 2 other frens i duno hu..as usual im d last to go home..since i got ntg much to do i met up wit ojosan n her fren since we din met 4 a very very long time..talk talk talk..n yea, mostly crap..but nvm, at least sum1 is laughin her head out..>.<..lol....then its time 4 both of them to go home..n there a lone soldier i am walkin aimlessly in klcc..d sun is settin..n i gotta go..its almost 6 sumthn n d bus is takin a long time..sum1 is bout to on9..took a quick walk from ampang point bus station..walk home..it was real tiring..ahh!..finally, i did came on..mission acomplished.

nice layout i had..an emo layout..tat signifies depression,anger,sadness,etc etc..tats not really wat i am though..but almost every1 knos im lidat..in d internet, i wil b so angry n emotional n all..I jus remembered d early times where i jus started playin frenster last 2 years..my profile was worse than how it is now..it has themes of anti religion, mocking religion, praisin satan n all..gals afraid to add me n even approve me..every1 saw my profile tinkin im sum what a psycho..my frens saw my profile n claim im so differ than wat is shown in d profile..wel..duh, of coz, dun tel me u tink im a satanist..haha..i jus got into heavy metal tat time..1 of my aunt hu is christian gila gila tinks im really a satanic guy..n assume all i listen to is satanic..=,=''..tink bout it, i really do change fast 2 years ago til now..even im now so differ compare to d time im form 3..i dun really judge myself, but i can jus feel d difference, there is a difference..nex year, duno wat i wil change into..sumthn better or not d better..

oh well, no matter, billy wil always b billy..
I really cant stand stayin at home afta sunrise..i hope sum1 wil jus come ask me "billy, wanna go out"..I duwanna stay home before sunset..I feel so duno how to describe bout it..aah!!.

P.S: theres a misery crown on my head..take it off it cant..
what is said n done is done..its now a part of d past..lookin bak wil not make a difference if not decidin to learn from it.

aTOP 5 PRESENT YOU WISH FOR:
1. Hua Min marry me!!
2. ESP guitars!!
3. My own jammin/recordin studio
4. PS3!
5. My independence

PERSON WHO TAGG-ED YOU IS: Ho Mei Ji aka ojousan

YOUR 5 IMPRESSIONS OF HIM/HER :
1. very good to her otousan
2. talkative
3. cheerful
4. Loves MONEY
5. NOOB

MOST MEMORABLE THINGS HE/SHE HAS DONE FOR YOU:
made me her otousan suddenly without my acceptance

THE MOST MEMORABLE WORDS HE/SHE SAID TO YOU:
baka otousan

IF HE/SHE BECOMES YOUR LOVER, YOU WILL:
no way!!eew, tats sick..how can a father date his own daughter n cheat on his daughter mother..is tis question mad!!?

IF HE/SHE BECOMES YOUR ENEMY, THE REASON WILL BE:
I call her stupid n noob too many times n tease wit using made up fake jepun-nese words on her tat i dun even kno. n keep ejek-ing her til i go over limit n she got speechless..tats cool.. neh, she wunt b my enemy..Im jus such a great daddy

mood like sial..its swayin here n there..

duno wat to blog eventho theres so much thng..

give me idea..

no1 is gonna give me idea..mayb there is..

oh bloody hell, dun jus so called simply judge me..judge properly la fuck..

can see wats in me?..nop..cant..

kno d true me?..duno..

screw heavy metal?..screw u 1st..

brand new guitar, an ESP eclipse..I wan..

new shit on d way?..hopefully..

look, im jus pissed like if sum1 jus come up to me n say "ur a piece of shit, ur bad, no doubt u r"..wtf!! hu d fuck u tink u r d judge me tis way..u dun even really kno hu i am..dude..fuck off..bring ur words to ur grave..

aftanoon feelin lonely n shitty, it makes me start to hate to stay home after sun rise

wil sum1 come up n say "I kno u, i understand u"..

if sum of u tink ur in a really fucked life now..look at me 1st shit heads..welcome to d club.

worse holz ever..

blog is not me, im not my own blog..

4 weeks more to d fuckin holidays..how am i gonna survive..

how long am i gonna withstand tis..

its jus shit to c d softcore emo bands comin up tis days..

Im also human..remember tat..

wateva it is..Im screwed!!!!!!!