Lets see..wen tis blog is made..i intend to only put music in it..as in to promote my original work..sumhow it turns out d other way..i look at d theme of it..i felt d sorrow..i felt d anger..i felt d sadness..i start bloggin without noticing it..its noticing wat im doin..its not jus a simple blog..is all angry n sad blogs..y?..y am i so sad..y am i so angry..unexplained theory to y it is..but as far as i culd c..billys theme is sadness n brutality..i hate feeling sad..i hate feeling angry nor moody..but i sumhow im so use to myself of being lidat..til i find out im meant to live lidat..wel tats not really..true..i said b4 unexplained theory..im always hapi outside..but inside seems like a broken life..normal to feel..as in like there r thngs im not satisfied, there r thngs i din get d proper answer, there r thngs tat doesn seem like wat it is said tat made prob in my heart by keep wonderin n wonderin, there r thngs tat i wan to kno d answer badly tats d true answer, there r thngs i wan to kno it honestly n not lies, n all those shit..another theory of me being hardcore emo music minded, listenin to those sad n angry songs make me feel good as in feeling shiok n angry n sad at d same time, a feeling hard to explain, d songs keep playin in my mind, tellin bout their downed life, their lost love, bout d gal they loved n how she has left them jus lidat, its mainly more to love relationship couples tat made tis kind of music, d underground kinda emotional hardcore music tat shows d true emotion n feelings of ppl than rather b poser comin out to d mainstream n call themselve wateva shit they r..if they tink plain white T, boys like girls, red jumpsuit apparatus, jimmy eats world, or etc etc r good..tink again..there many thngs way better lies beneath..bak to myself, i can cry wen i listen to sum of those kind of music..ok sum ppl may tink im jus gay n soft hearted but really its touchin n emotional n u can feel d music reflects ur life or make it part of ur life..eventho they may had those grindcore n screamins but those r expressin feelings in hidden lyrics tat is way more unique than clean vocals..
Blog to express inner feelings n releasin anger..my blog wil hardly eva sound hapi..i dun really fancy sounding hapi even if i am in a good mood..but i really do wan d 1 by my side to b n sound hapi..but sumtimes i culd cause grave sadness to eventho its not on my will..i had nvr once wanted her to feel sad nor angry..but thngs jus dun go on my wil sumtimes..life is lidat..y am i easily angry..a theory explains i listen to too much angry music tat wen i got angry i feel d beats playin in my mind, lyrics to tel me to kill, destroy n all those..harm d 1 tat deserve it n d 1 i dislike n hate n all shit..comin into my mind..i became heartless 4 d moment. it subside soon n wil regain d self conscious of myself..tat is half true i tink..there r sum frens i wanna get rid of n sum i really like..wat is FRENS..it doesn mean anythn..even d 1 we dun really like r our frens..always d word FRENS shows as if there r alot of meanings by sayin "so wat, we r frens" "coz they r my frens" "Frens ma"..haha..i jus did feel its all fake..not all frens r always d frens we wanted..there r alot frens in my life tat doesn deserve much n there r sum hu deserve alot..I dun take all frens tat important..i neglect lots of their feelings coz they deserve it..but not sum which r really true frens n not gonna name them incase of sensitive issue occurs..I had been so stupid last time to trust all frens hu r GOOD to me as in "good"..alot of ppl cant b trusted no matter how good they r to u,us,me or we..we cant read their minds totally..I had frens tat smoke..1 of them is d 1 tat taught me to..he is a true fren..so called bad guys turns out to b d real good guys or frens same to as gals but hardly find any of them..
Sleepless nites has been a big part of my life..i always have black rings around me eyes..dun need buy make ups to giv me eyes shadows..i always hav natural ones...haha..there r normal reasons y hav sleepless nites..such as busy..nex..is sumthn tat made me cant really go slp..n always gotta use skul times to slp..tireness..part of sum sort of a feelin i cant describe..wth..gtg..in pc lab... to b continue.........